Saw one of my friends, today.

After having been interrogated by my mother's friends, I received a text message from one of my friends which I have not seen in quite some time. I was really happy that he asked if I was free because, for one thing I certainly was, I really needed time to get out of the house and have a little bit of fun. 

After waiting for my friend for about 20 minutes, we stepped outside to get into this car, and BAM! The sunshine was incredibly warm and beautiful. For the past several days, I believe it was perhaps an entire week, the weather was just absolutely dreadful and dull! It was raining continuously and there was not one ray of sun passing through the dark dismal clouds up above. I could smell freshly cut grass, the scent of flowers in the breeze, and nature all around me. Being cooped up inside my room working and doing research is certainly not entirely stressful, but it can cause some mental harm. 

We were driving here and there deciding where we should go, so we went to SunRidge Mall. There was absolutely no where to park for there was a little carnival going on not too far from it, so as one would have expected, there would have been no parking at all. Me being incredibly bored and annoyed with the parking, I said, "Let's go to Joey! I want to grab a Mojito." Oh indeed I grabbed my mojito! I believe they may have spiked my drink because I was incredibly drunk after ONE GLASS! I was rather red in the face. Do I not look charming? :P 

Then we decided we would go watch a movie! Oh yes, this is like the best because the timing of the movies were way off and I was still rather drunk! We arrived at the Cineplex at around 15h30 and all the movies were going to begin at either 15h45 or 19h00, and the only not so ridiculously late movie that was going to play was at 17h50. So, we chose that one. The movie that started at 17h50 happened to be After Earth. Yes, you read that correctly, I typed After Earth, the one with Will Smith and his son. I thought that the movie comes out on the 7th of June, but apparently not, and on top of that, the movie was literally half off than normal ticket prices. The movie itself was not so entertaining, actually, if you are the type of person that enjoys explosions, death, and sexual scenes, then this movie is most definitely not for you! I do not want to spoil it, but I believe that movie was more of an entertaining way of saying, "What is needed, rather than running away or controlling or suppressing or any other resistance, is understanding fear; that means, watch it, learn about it, come directly into contact with it. We are to learn about fear, not how to escape from it.
Jiddu Krishnamurti 
Read more at http://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/topics/topic_fear.html#BdhKvAJ6LYhUO2oT.99" 

After the movie, we went to chapters and browsed through some books! I saw some very interesting titles like "The Stranger's Child," "The Kite Runner," "The Shining," and a book by a Chinese author named Ai Mi. After I finish reading the series of unfortunate events (which in my personal opinion, is a rather slow, and taxing read. I am not enjoying any of the books so far! But I will have to finish them) I will finish up Harry Potter, and then read these very interesting books. 

Skipping along, we finally get home! The weather was still as hot as it was when the moment I stepped to head out! So I was relived to finally get back home and drink some cool water. My friend and I had a really long chat about how school was bothering him and I told him that school should not determine success, rather school should be a backup plan if your plan to success does not succeed. That way no time is wasted and you have a job. I was thinking to myself that perhaps I should study aboard (by aboard I mean just across the country, ha!) I am thinking about taking Paralegal at this University my friend is interested in. Speaking of Universities, my friend was distressed about the amount of tuition he will have to pay if he decides to go to Academy of Art University, which is located in San Francisco. Of course, we are not incredibly wealthy people, so 80k for 4 years is undoubtably distressing. But I told, write out the pros and cons of attending both schools like would both of these institutions take you to the same place in life? And many more similar questions. But I think I was able to help sort out his thoughts before he headed home. 

Any who! My day was really nice, and I could not have asked for better. 

I thank her for calling me Ugly.

Oh man, where do I begin? This is actually going to be a really long entry, tonight. 

Way back in high school, I remember that I was working two jobs, while studying in my final year. It was not easy at all, especially since I also had a heart condition. But I fought on, I studied hard, and I did my best to handle the stress. One job was working at CrossIron Mills Mall. I was an aromatherapist, or that is what they wanted me to think. I was selling essential oils at rather ridiculously high prices. What made that job horrible was not what I did, but the location and what I was handling. Before I started working, my skin was actually pretty damn good. I had not one blemish, I had not one wrinkle, but over the course of about 7 months, my skin started to get red and my cheeks started to break out, but only ever so slightly, but what made it worse was that I was working in front of the god damn food court! Where all the oils, dirt, and crap were floating around. But after working at the Mall, I would have to commute to the Calgary International Airport where I worked for 9 months, with absolutely horrible, pathetic, useless, creatures. I am glad that is all that they have ever amounted to because that type of job is all that they will ever have! (Sorry! Check out my Ranting Corner Blog) Anyways, the air in the airport was absolutely filthy, and the people that I worked with stressed the heck out of me, thus my stress hormones were sky rocketing! I then broke out on my chin and, well, my self esteem went crashing. The reason why I quit the airport was not because of my lack of self esteem, but because of the floor manager that works there. (I will include a lot of shit about her in my Rant!) 

Before my first year at University, I gave myself one month to rest and relax. So finally after high school and working two jobs, I got one month break. I thought that was all I needed to get back into gear, but I was so wrong for when University started, I still looked rather ratchet. I have my school ID! I will probably upload a photo of it when I feel like it, but I look absolutely horrible. My Korean friend said that I look like a prisoner. Yeah, that is how bad I looked, and essentially felt about myself. But that all changed one late evening. Actually, I have to thank this bitchy white chick for waking me up. What happened was that one late night, I was walking on the second level through an empty, brick floored hallway in my University. I was thinking to myself, "Wow! Is it ever quiet!" But the silence was broken when I heard this girl say, "Jesus Christ, that guy is UGLY!" Rather than saying, "Well, that is rather rude! I am not ugly." I said to myself, "She is right.. I do not really feel like I like the way I look." That was when I started taking care of myself, focusing on my hair, clothing, and eye glasses. I dyed my hair light brown. It actually looked really nice on me when I finally chopped off that bird nest that was resting on my head. Next, I met a Korean girl who lectured me on my appearance and said that I should change my clothing. We went shopping and, well, she has good taste in clothing, and then finally my eye glasses. I looked rather sharp with my new style! But even though I could change my hair, clothing, and body accessories, I did not like how my face looked. I started doing yoga thrice a week, I started drinking tea, I started using face products, and even skin lighteners, and then finally, I started doing face massages (check out my entry on "Things I do on lazy days like these" for the link to the face massage). 

Now two years later, I look, feel, and am happier, healthier, and smexier! I thank that girl for waking me up! I thank her for saying that horrible, degrading thing. I thank her for telling me the truth when no one else would, for not even I would have liked to say something like that to myself. 

Things I do on lazy days like these.

Ironically, I had quite a lazy day! And today is a Monday! I guess I would not say that it was entirely wasted. Usually when there is nothing planned for the following day or that my plans on a particular day will have to be altered, I have a: Lazy Day Plan. This is what the plan includes:

1. Tidy up bed room/ house, if not feeling terribly lazy.
2. Eat breakfast/ lunch for about two hours, then sip on some tea while reading a good book. Currently I am finishing the Unfortunate Events series. I will probably whip up an opinion of each book as I finish them. 
3. Blast some music and eat some more.
4. Play games.
5. Read about random stuff on: 9gag, Reddit, The Metro (local news paper).

I believe that the most INTERESTING thing that I did today was that I did some research on face massages. I found several videos pertaining to it, but the most helpful and detailed explanation would be the Tanaka's Face Massages (link here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LrceQS7qdaI ) They are really simple, easy, and fun to do. Who does not want to look young, healthy, and happy? 

Twisted part 2: Videos

Below are some of the videos I took! One has me being in the dark beside this super cute guy, me on the dance floor, and me with my friend who happens to be showing off his glowing-ness.Unfortunately, one of the videos were too big and could not be uploaded. It was of a Drag Queen rocking it out on stage! 

Upcoming Gay Pride Parade

Last night my good friend invited me to go to Edmonton this upcoming weekend for the Gay Pride Parade. At first I was thinking to myself "Oh gosh! Will it be safe? Will it be fun? Should I bring protection? What is going to happen?" Then, as if my friend could read my mind said to me "Do not worry too much about it. We will all be with you and it will be a lot of fun!" 

Wisdom obtained from experience, I will most definitely have no expectations as to what will be going on. I will simply go there with an open mind! 

Things that I will be bringing with me:

1. My iPad
2. My Samsung Phone
3. My Skull Candy headphones
4. Money (dur)
5. IDs (dur)
6. One pair of pjs
7. Two changes of clothing 
8. Hygienic products
9. My own pillow case 
10. My own towel

This is going to be so much fun!!! Finally, I am going to be going out of the City with friends to an event I have never thought I would attend. 

I will be uploading the videos/photos I take on the evening of the parade! So, if anyone reads LangDer's Journal, expect a lot of funzies!

Things were pretty twisted at Twisted, tonight.

Usually my days are filled with work, research for work, practical applications of the things that I researched for work, then stress at home, then studies, and then finally some me time, except imagine this for the past several years. It was not until I came out of the closet that my life lit up; my friend's eldest brother happen to hear that I am gay (more specifically bi) and he decided to introduce me to all the wonders of the gay community. Now, I am not being overly critical, but it is a kind of community that lacks compassion and is incredibly superficial. Any who, that will be another topic to be discussed later, but I must say this community certainly knows how to have a good time.

Tonight will mark the, perhaps 11th night that I have gone to the gay club, here in Calgary, called Twisted Element. It is a rather small club, but it is quite nice, by that I mean the people seem generally friendly, the bartenders are hot, and the music is good! What made this evening better than the past fortnights is that I had absolutely no expectations of what could happen at the club, I did not try to dance with anyone, I did not engage in anything with anyone because I know that I would be disappointed when I am turned down. Tonight, several guys kissed me, several people danced with me, and my friends and I, along with everyone else on the dance floor shaking our asses to Nicki Minaj and all that, had a blast. There were so many good looking guys there. I really wished that I was taller because dancing with tall people is awkward.. for the both of us. 

My friends and I are heading up to Edmonton for the upcoming gay pride parade this weekend! Again, I will have no expectations as to what may happen. I will keep a positive, accepting, and open mind to whoever comes my way. 

Any how, I am sleepy! Had such an enjoyable first day of the month! 

June the 1st!

Yay! So finally we have reached the half way through the year! WHO HERE IS EXCITED?! 

I know I am. I have a few things I would like to do this month, starting with today.

In my blog yesterday I said that the best time to start anything is, well, NOW! For the first of this month I want to start it off just right, with just the right amount of exercise, beauty, and most importantly an effort. I also want to see my friends and family happy but I will start off with one person today and that will most likely be my mum. 

What my plans are for today?

1. Completely clean up my room.
2. Feed my lizard and puppy.
3. Do 30 minutes of exercise and 15 minutes of yoga. 
4. LAUGH
5. Find a really good book to read, I already have quite the collection so it should be too difficult.
6. Clean the kitchen. :P This is the good deed I shall do today, haha. 
7. Do my laundry.
8. Work on my vlogs
9. Find a really good album to buy.
10. Blog about my day!! (Although blogging is fun, I should do my best to blog at least once a day, rather than having several mini blogs about random stuff, I will just clump it into one large post.)

I will be productive and happy today!

I hope you all have a wonderful June the 1st!!!